Goal #1 - Have fun playing poker

That's my #1 goal. Why?

I started playing poker in 09/2006. Saw it on TV and was hooked. The next day I bought alot of books (2+2 they are great!) and PokerAcademyPro (great too). I played 10k hands with PokerAcademy and (re)read my books. In November I started my online poker "career". I deposited $400 on party and started playing right away. No playmoney here. First I had a mayor upswing. Then some downswings. I played NL, S&G, Cash, MTTs. I tried multitabling. Had upswings again. I tilted. I had Good Beats and Bat Beats. I gave and received suckouts. I played every day. And sometimes I was wondering. Is this an addiction? Well if it was, at least I didn't loose money. Which was good, right?

But during the last month I became aware that I didn't have fun playing poker anymore. And that bugs me.

There are a lot of reasons for this. But I think the main reason is, that I was hoping I could make a living out of it or to become rich overnight. I tried too hard. Every suckout made me now angry. I tilted too much, too often.

I know I'm not gifted. For me to learn poker means hard work (that's ok). But at the poker tables you meet sometimes people who just instantly know what to do and how to play. Very impressive. It bugged me that I'm not one of them. But wait. Why? I don't even need the money.

Poker is a game. It should be fun.

I want that back :D